Posted by: Ella on: July 12, 2011
The sky is the limit
And I just wanna flow
Free as a spirit on a journey of hope
Cut the strings and let me go
I’m weightless, I’m weightless
Millions of balloons tethered to the ground
Weight of the world tries to hold us down
Cut the strings and let me go
I’m weightless, I’m weightless
I’m weightless, I’m weightless, I’m weightless…
All the things I held in my fist
If I don’t let go, I don’t exist
They’ve become the things that define me
How I look and the things to buy me
That’s not important anymore
I feel me rising off the floor
Light as a feather, I’m carefree
I’m weightless…
Posted by: Ella on: July 12, 2011
Most of the time, I will have this series of decision making before I finally act on something. At first, I usually feel I need to do something. This feeling can be extremely excited or extremely disappointed. At this point, I don’t decide right away on something, as I’m afraid it’s only a sudden emotion. When my mind can come back finally, then I think on the benefit vs cost of it. Then, before I act on what I have thought, I’d try to sense if I would make the right decision for me by doing the action. This is the point where my thinking, experience, info, feeling, and common sense would blend together. Sometimes, I will loop back and forth between rethinking and resensing. However, the feeling part can only come back after I act, which might only be the first step of actions. And before the next action, of course I will have the feeling part first.
I know this might be a boring post. I’m just writing my random thoughts.
Posted by: Ella on: March 31, 2011
I’m grateful to have a chance to learn about women.
In my office, I see career women doing their best for their work, no matter how difficult it is. I don’t know how they are at home, but at the office they’re confident and responsible with their decisions.
During my commuting time, I see women proudly going to work, doing their best to look beautiful, even though some fall asleep during the travel, might be tired from doing their job and serving their family – no time for rest.
Some of these working moms call their children during the day in between their busy meetings or in the evening on their way home or at night when they have to go for out-of-town business. They work hard to handle their double roles, yet they handle them very well. I guess this is what our modern society expects to women: to work with the same quality with men, yet handling responsibility to take care of the family.
Now, let’s look at other kind of women. My current job is handling products for women. Of course, I need to understand my consumer. With this, I get a chance to see women with different role from what I wrote above: housewives. Since I haven’t got a chance to have this role on my own, I didn’t know how their life is like. Here, I learn what they feel and what they do, what makes them happy or sad. A lot of people think that being a housewife is easy, happy, not frustrating, etc. But when I hear from them, I see that they work as hard – to keep their husbands happy with their appearance, food they cook, house they clean up, to take care their children well, or even to ensure the money their husband gives is enough for all the household needs.
Doing their not-as-easy roles, yet a lot of them feel they are nothing compared to men, or even to career women. I think this world is not built by only some group of people, but by each of us. We need everyone to feel as important. Women – together with men – build the world. We might have different roles, but it is not our right to undermine roles of others.
Posted by: Ella on: September 7, 2010
Ya, 2 hari yang lalu gw ngejanjiin posting ‘backdated’, yang sampe sekarang ini blom gw sorting juga. Maaf ya sodara-sodara. Dari kemarin pagi gw mengalami mencret2 alias sakit perut. Nggak tahu kenapa, tapi gw curiga ini gara-gara pas hari Minggu lalu gw makan pake tangan tapi nggak cuci tangan dulu. Sampe sekarang deh sakitnya. Kemaren sih masih mending, karena kemaren gw nggak puasa karena biasa deh, lagi dapet anugerah sebagai cewe. Jadi masih bisa minum yang banyaaaak.
Nah, hari ini gw mulai puasa lagi. Sementara nggak minum seharian, mencret gw tetep keluar dong, jadilah gw lemes dan rada pusing. Makanya itu, tadi sore gw pulang cepet, sekitar jam 5 (biasanya gw pulang abis Maghrib). Soalnya di kantor juga udah pusing, nggak bisa mikir. Nah, saking lemesnya, gw pengen naik ojek dari depan kantor gw di Mampang ke Cawang, biar nggak usah jalan kaki jauh-jauh. Eh, ternyata ya, si tukang ojek ngasih harga Rp30,000! Idih, tiap pagi gw naik ojek dari Cawang Rp12,000 aja, loh.